Sunday, January 23, 2011

yes, i am.

yes, i am.

4 weeks pg.

i'm cautiously (ok, fucking ecstatic) happy.

Sunday, January 16, 2011

do you see what i see?

two lines.

tomorow i test the idiot proof that says PREGNANT and NOT PREGNANT.

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

what's next?

yes, we're still trying..

last month, i tested on the 19th of dec and it was a negative. and then, my AF came on 20th dec. fuck.

and then i hear a few friends who announce that they are pregnant with their 2nd child or have given birth to their 2nd child. went to a mother's group gathering and all i heard was, are you trying? are you trying? i lie with a straight face, ERM, NO! because unlike previously when i told the whole fucking world that i was trying, they kept remarking that i've put on weight and could it be cuz i'm pregnant?! fuck you!

on another note, T had a very scary fall recently! it broke my heart and i went ballistic crazy cuz he had a seizure after his fall! i toally bawled my eyes out and am in tears now cuz i feel that i've failed as his mother to protect him

i love my baby too much.