babes and i have been talking more and more about us trying again for number 2. i still haven't my AF yet. Bf-ing has kept her at bay. Night weaning has been harder than i thought. T has been sick the whole of April and is sick again with the cold and cough. I hate cold months. He always gets so sick during the colder months. And whenever he is teething, he gets a cold. So, the boob becomes his comfort zone. Mama here, is very sleep deprived.
Been thinking of giving my fertility specialist a call...soon. Feel that time is ticking for us. I'm worried that it'll take another 3.5years or that it may never happen for us. We worry too about the financial and emotional strain. But I feel that a sibling for T would do him good. What if one day, both of us aren't around anymore, he would at least have someone he can turn to.
So, I've set a dateline. I'll be giving my fertility specialist a call next month. Likelihood of us getting an appointment with him would be in 3 months time. Hopefully by then, I'll get my AF back. T's health would be better. And I think I may need to start thinking about alternative career options when he goes to school in 2014. So, possibly, thinking about going back to school.
A bit scary.
We have so many dreams.
If we can't have another, I know I'll be very sad. But I'm thankful that I have T and I've learnt so much through my experience with infertility. I cherished every second/minute of being pregnant. I loved being big (the bigger the better, I kept saying!), I loved feeling him move and I loved the backaches from carrying him for 37weeks 2 days! ha!
So, please say a prayer for us that maybe, somehow, we'll be blessed with another.
And no, we won't be "relaxing" to get another baby.
ps I still fuckking hate that OH, JUST RELAX AND YOU'LL GET PREGNANT assvice! HATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Stupid blogger ate my comment. But you are worth typing it again.
ReplyDeleteI am so hoping this next go at conceiving will be much easier since you got a protocol that worked to get you T. Fingers crossed for you. I'm also glad you put a timeline on things.
I am so proud of you for nursing this long. Kudos; I know it is not easy!
Personally, I think you need to get out of the house and leave T with Daddy every once in a while so they can have male bonding time and you can get some "you" time. I think it would be good for everyone, but that's just my opinion.
So- what are your interestes? What are you considering going to school to learn/do? What are your hobbies?
Much love and luck!